"if wishes were fishes, I know where I'd be, Casting my net in the dark rolling sea; And if my net's empty when it comes back to shore, I'll throw it away and go fishing no more."I was just thinking about a few things that I wish I had today. Mostly because I've been feeling kind of lost with Shane gone. I know it's silly but it's like I'm forgetting to do something ALL the time. It's such a strange feeling and I know it's just because the 2-3 phone calls during the day and the evenings with him here are such a big part of my NORMAL life that without them things aren't quite normal. So anyway.... on with my post :) With the boredom comes a little extra time spent on the
Internet just looking at blogs etc. and I kept wishing I was as talented as some of these people, or had such a cute house etc. etc. I really am happy with the way I am and my wonderful family but here is a list of my wishes beyond my next to perfect life:
Commercial wishes: (what I would buy if I had some extra cash)
1. A really nice SUV. I don't really have an absolute favorite but we have been looking at bigger vehicles lately because it's quite a tight squeeze getting our little family into our Civic and 626 and you can forget about bringing someone else along. So far I really liked the Honda Pilot because it's not huge, but it was still quite roomy. We also sat in a few
Accura MDX's and i felt squished when compared. I think it's because there was a little less headroom. Anyway. If I could, I would buy a Pilot or something similar that had nice leather seats, a DVD player, all the bells an whistles and some kind of lifetime warranty so that I wouldn't ever have to worry about it breaking down. :) Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my little civic, but getting kids in and out of it is getting tougher and tougher these days.

2. A custom made wardrobe. Jeans, Jeans, Jeans!!!! I want a whole bunch of jeans that all make me look fantastic! (don't we all?) Shirts that are flattering and LONG enough, lots of cute shoes, and accessories to go with every outfit. I've never been a good shopper. Its so hard to find things that fit me well so I usually come home frustrated and empty handed. I've never really liked my wardrobe. Sewing is actually quite expensive and lets face it, You just can't sew a pair of jeans or cute T's and have them come out right.

3. One of the Rainbow play systems for our back yard. Of course if we had one, my kids would never want to play on it, but if the neighbors have it, it's the best thing in the world. I've always loved things like this and trampolines because we never had them as kids so they never lost their charm for me.

4. A Cook and a Maid. I think if the cooking and cleaning were taken from my list of
responsibilities, I think I would be more up to playing with my kids. After cleaning the house, and cooking two or three times a day I just want to sit and watch T.V. or relax in some way. We'll never have these things, even if we had more money. So I guess I better just suck it up and play with my kids cause it won't be long before they don't want to play anymore :(


Non commercial stuff:
1. I would love to be more creative. I know that sounds funny because I sew all these
children's clothes, but It takes everything I can think of to come up with that stuff and it's NOTHING compared to some of the other stuff I see out there. I really do consider myself a seamstress, not a designer. Just look at how my house is decorated......
It's not! Our house needs an interior decorator SO BAD!!!! I'm afraid to even try for fear that I would be wasting my money on something that wouldn't look good in the end. If anyone wants to come help me decorate my house.... PLEASE DO! And you can forget about
scrapbooking. I can not do it. I spend an hour on one lousy page and it still looks like something a 2
nd grader did, and there are probably a lot of 2
nd graders who could do it better than me. Now, show me a picture of something and I can usually recreate it to a T, but coming up with the idea on my own in next to impossible.

2. I wish I was better with kids. I feel like I'm good with my own kids, but throw the neighbors kids in the mix and I panic. It may be a result of a handful of terrifying babysitting experiences as a kid (I've had my share) but I do not do well with other peoples kids. I'm always amazed at those moms who have every kid in the neighborhood at their house and still have it together.

3. Well, since I will never have a cook, I wish I was a better cook myself. I really don't mind cooking at all but I'm no good at it. I could not come up with my own recipes if my life depended on it. I consider myself lucky if the recipes I do use come out right. There is a lady from our ward who is an AWESOME cook. Granted, she did go to culinary school but she makes food that is to die for! I would be happy just to have a lot of good recipes to go by. I guess it doesn't help that I judge my cooking abilities by the satisfaction of the family, and well..... Shane is just plain picky. But if I knew how to do it right, I could probably get him to eat things that he thought he didn't like.

4. Now this last one is actually achievable, I want to have a better attitude. I know sleep deprivation has a LOT to do with it, but I would really like to be one of those people who is at least usually happy and rarely has a nasty comment. When I have more sleep this is a ton easier. And it's getting better as at least 4 nights a week now I get to sleep from 11pm to 6am without
interruption. But this is the "wish" that whether or not it comes true, is entirely up to me.

I guess if there is anyone out there randomly granting wishes, here is my list :) If not... oh well. I'm pretty darn happy without these things.